It's so good to be back

I'm staring at this blank page, wondering how to start and then I remembered something Jerry Seinfeld said.  He said there is no such thing as writer's block - there is only fear.  Well, I was afraid for a long time, I realized.  But no more. 

For so long, I thought that sharing my music and talent was only behind me - something that was a part of my past. I have recently realized that it is not only not behind me, but it is very much my present and must be a part of my future as well, if I'm going to live fully.  I am a singer.  I am a musician.  It's a huge part of my identity and how I feel connected to myself and the world around me.  It's not a weakness, it's one of my greatest strengths.  

I was always drawn to singing because it helped me connect with others.  I wanted to share experiences and feelings and live alongside people through music.  I pursued the craft at the highest level.  I learned myself and my body; technique, theory, history, language, movement, character study, stage craft.  Hours spent alone in a practice room.  Hours spent in collaboration with other musicians, pursuing their own version of connection.  

After I left the music industry, I poured everything into creating a new "professional" version of me.  I have succeeded in these other worlds as well and have applied the same principles of connection and self-discovery there, too.  

Recently, I discovered that the very thing I was minimizing was actually my greatest asset.  My ability to access my own voice and connect with others authentically and uniquely with it is something few are able to do.  It doesn't have to be that way.  I want everyone to be able to find their voice and use it fully in their own powerful, unique way.  Connecting is in our DNA.  We are social beings.  And to authentically connect with others, we first need to learn how to connect with ourselves. 

All these years later, I decided to combine my musical ability with all the other wonderful nuggets of wisdom I've learned from the "professional" world and I add in a dash of life coaching and voila.  I'm back. 

Back to connecting.  Back to helping.  Back to healing.  Back to growing.  Back to feeling alive.  And it's just. so. good. to be back.